It occurred to me the other day that I have been, of late, learning to love my voice, enjoy it even… rather than wanting to sound like someone I revered (whom I was never going to sound like).
If you were to ask me who I would like to sound like today I’d probably say Pink. Clearly, I don’t sound like Pink. The vocal gutsiness and edginess is so natural to her.
When I was very young, it was Judy Garland. I was drawn into the world of musical theatre, the spectacle and fantasy was so appealing. Judy Garland was a belter, like Barbra Streisand and Aretha. The command in their voices, the richness of tone and power. When they do it, it sounds effortless. And that is the mark of true mastery. Making something look like it just happens. And when they open their mouths, well, sometimes we aren’t prepared for the wonder that comes out.
For ages I couldn’t work out how to create that belting sound. So whilst I loved to sing and perform, I was constantly setting myself up for a fall. I’m just not a natural belter. I didn’t know how to produce the power and my body wasn’t hard-wired to do it.
I have since realised with technique I can do it. And have surprised myself, and a few others with what comes out. In a good way, by the way. My current favourite to let rip on is, “Who’s Lovin’ you?” by the Jackson 5.
I have also learned that build and physique comes into it, how you were trained at the beginning of your singing life. Sometimes what you do instinctively is your true sound; and at the core, my voice is sweet. Sweet, with a lot of clarity. And I used to hate that.
I realise now though, that instead of fighting against nature, the best comes when I work with it. Let it do its thing. After all, that’s what I really admire in other singers. How they use their instrument naturally and deliver an authentic performance.
For me, it’s all about the story, the lyrics and emotion and if I am truly in the middle of it, my voice will do the rest. Of course I practise, explore and experiment.
But, every fantastic singing teacher I have ever had has told me to work hard but shut the door on the technique when I perform - and just sing.
Sometimes, we can torture ourselves because we are not what we want to be. We forget to see the gift we have been given and appreciate and nurture it.
When I was in the studio recently, my producer (who happens to be good friend) and I had a bit of an argument. In fact, we were severely pissing each other off. I felt I was giving the performance I needed to give and he told me he wasn’t feeling it. Ouch. I mean seriously ouch.
It could said I then unleashed a hybrid of a spoilt child and stroppy diva… Anyway, we were snapping at each other and I felt he was being down right mean. And then he said to me, “Focus, you don’t need this make-up for your voice, just be you.”
I was so taken back because it was so out of the blue and a really lovely thing to say. My brain didn’t have time to compute. So I sang. And it was pretty much a perfect take.
He then told me he had upset me on purpose to get the performance out of me, because he knew which buttons to press… Not sure I believe that!
So, one of my least favourite questions used to be “Who do you sound like? Names, used to fly through my head…people I wanted to sound like, people I didn’t, people I ought to associate myself with, given genre and style.
I don’t what’s happened, maybe I finally getting comfortable with my voice; nowadays, I say you could come to hear me sing and decide for yourself. I sound like Parry Ray.
https://soundcloud.com/parry-ray-official/slow-burn?in=parry-ray-official/sets/parry-ray-sampler